Tails of The Wolf and The Werewolf

Okay A LOT is going on

It’s surreal

It’s overwhelming

It’s amazing

Update on Stinging Nettle: surprised at how quick it dries! Seems to dry in half the time. The quick pickle stems are fun. I used them as a condiment today. Tastes good & they’ve held their shape.

Today I was picking dandelion flowers by the lake, listening to the waves, thinking to myself “holy shit this is amazing”

I have been feeling much gratitude for this life & Jakoby has been mentioning his thanks daily.

The sun has been shining & we both got our first sunburns! Hello outdoor life ☀️

I love when my pasty winter skin gets into shorts & bathing suits. I went for a dip today in the lake.. so cold.. so so cold. I kept repeating to myself “it’s just a mindset 🥶 it’s just a mindset” haha ya..

I call on my Italian genetics in the sunshine 🇮🇹 Soak it all in baby, the sun makes me grow strong, just like the plants.

We spent an hour on the beach today. Kai got her head wet by a wave & chased a stick up to her belly in the water. Jakoby & I share visions of her running full tilt off the breakwall, fetching a stick in the lake.

I wonder if Kai wants the same life we imagine her to have?

Do parents wonder this about their kids?

I wonder if my children will want to spend their days in the garden?

I keep hearing “why not!”

Cool.

Ou yes, so the other thing I wanted to write about pertains to a dream.

I met my spirit guides during a lucid dream the other morning. Four of them.. two females & two males. I have been connecting with them for some years now, but this was the first time I saw them in a “human” form.. and all of them together.

It’s difficult to describe and define them b/c they can be anything at any time.

For example: while chatting with one of my guides, he transformed into a dog, then back into a human. It was very casual haha.

My other guide told me he once was a werewolf. I was slightly nervous by this & told him “I don’t need to see that” haha

What I am curious about is the connection and symbolism of the werewolf and wolf.

Kai has moments throughout the day where she gets hyped up & bites a lot. When she is in this mode, she bares her teeth & furrows/frowns her eyes.

I’ve been calling it “The Wolf”.

A few weeks ago, while in dreamspace, I saw three dark-furred dogs. Two resembled common house labs, but the third was a large wolf. It was significantly bigger than the other two and had a large, dominating aura.

After some time, I came to believe the canines I had seen were dimensions/personalities of Kai.

Lately, when the wolf comes out, I’ve been telling it to go away. I tell the wolf that we want to hang out with a doggy, not a wolf. Then I rub her belly.

I don’t want to suppress the wolf or eradicate it. I want to honour all of Kai.. but the wolf hurts. I have cuts on my arms & hands. You can’t reason with the wolf, or control it. When the wolf takes hold, it has to play out.. kind of like the werewolf eh

It is like she forgets everything and becomes the wolf. Then when she “snaps out of it”, it’s like it never happened.

So I’m curious if we are each reflecting our wolves at each other?

Does the wolf recognize the werewolf? Does the werewolf provoke the wolf? Or vise versa?

I don’t know.

Maybe this is all just a silly story.

Either way, we are both learning to channel our inner wolves. It’s not easy, but we are helping each other.

It feels good to growl.

It feels good to howl.

May our pack grow strong.